Just some refreshment to my posts

A girl from my class gave me the link to her blog. She said she rights a diary since she was 7 or 10 and it helped her writing skills. Now I am sorry I did not do that. So now I decided I need to correct my situation and renew my writing to my diary or blog. Maybe it will help my poor writing skills? I hope my future employer will not read this post and this statement, or I will never have job with him/her.

I thought about writing short today, because it is almost 9 pm and I am sleepy and tired and empty headed (or heavy headed?). So today I have received that annoying letter from some lady/man from Africa who wants to transfer funds and needs my bank account. I have received many of those recently, so I wonder where the hell those people found my email address. My next question is whether they still find idiots who sends them their information. I think yes, there are still some, otherwise, those spammers would change theme. Actually, they do change it. Anyway, I replied to one of those emails, saying "back off, bustards!!!" I do not think it will stop them, but I had to get rid of my steam.

It is interesting to observe myself, though. When I am not satisfied with myself, when I am behind with my homework, or not successful with job etc, I try to prove myself in other places. For example, I am really misearable recently and I decided that if I cannot be ahead at school, I will try to be on the road. I must say it is very dangerous! You may assume, don't you? So on my way to school, this guy in red Jeep sat behind me so close that I wanted hit him with my pointy shoe in his rear. Then after his maneauvre to pass me, I accelerated to prevent him to get in front of me. I almost did it, but then I relaxed and this bustard cut me off and got in front of me. To my outrage he showed me f***. This made me violant, outrageous and other conditions describing a blond without mind. I hit the pedal and sat on the rear of that red Jeep till the guy turned to the ramp, which happened a couple miles after our burning conflict. What was interesting to observe, that I was not tense. As a rule when I do such bad things I am tense and always think if I should do this. But today, I honestly enjoyed it. Does it mean that lack of sleep and unsuccess in life makes me risky? This is not a good thing.

By the way, I always try to write something smart and intelligent. For example, talking about laws and my opinions. But I cannot come up with a subject. I even begin thinking maybe I really am not interested in the law, if I do not reflect any emotions? Tough question, isn't it? I also hope I am mistaken, because I enjoy law. lol

Shooting in the school again!!

What is going on with those people???!!! Shooting again, this time in Ill. Now I begin thinking how safe it is in my school?

Monday can be hard, but nice too

Finally!... I have brought my hand up and answered on CrimLaw. Even twice. Our professor encourages reponses by adding point to my total on exam. So I am glad I have begun. Now I just need keep moving.

How to find motivation for studying

It is Saturday. It is almost 5 pm. And I did not begin to do my homework. So I have googled "how to find motivation to do homework." I have found nice result here. I did not find many of advices for me, therefore, I took some of them and now I post here.

1. Think of the consequences. What will happen if you don't do your homework? You'll get a bad grade? Your teacher will be disappointed in you? If none of these things seem to apply to you, remember that homework is to help you learn, which everyone ultimately wants. In the real world, knowledge helps you master the rules of the game...and if you don't know the rules, how are you going to win? If Knowledge is Power...Ignorance is minimum wage.
2. If you really don't want to do your homework, then just get everything ready to do your homework: paper, pencil, textbook, and cup of tea. Then sit down and open the book to the page you need to read. Then read the first paragraph. Usually by then you will feel that you can write the first sentence. Break it down into little bites.
3. Do the hardest work first. This means the more you do it, the easier it gets.
4. It's easier to recall something if you remembered it under a similar environment (known as state-dependent learning). That's why it is important to study at a table and with proper lighting instead of reading on your bed, for example. (I do like to study in bed, but I noticed I do not remember much from it).
5. Also, think about the better grades you might get if you do your homework consistently. (EXACTLY!!!!)

I have looked into another link How-to-Be-A-Student. Yeah, general conclusion from it - study and study.

I think I am motivated now! Better I will begin read ConLaw. I am behind like 20 pages and then he gave us to read another 30. Total 50 pages to go for the next 3-4 hours.

Friday, the day of small relax- and a little about my new policy

I have not been writing for a while and I can explain it with me being busy with studying and moot court. Yes, I finally have experienced moot court competition. My other reason of some fear to spit my thoughts and feelings I have had recently about law school in general and my success. Past week was a torture for me, because each morning I got up with a thought of hatred for law school and the whole system. I hated it because I had hard time to figure out many things and because I did not have enough of sleep, I felt that I am behind of everybody, and it made me even worse. I went to read some blogs and with some disgust read how people enjoy a law school. Finally, I have overcome those feeling. I think I just needed a good sleep, and I had it. Now I am motivated and even happy. Honestly, not very much happy, because I am still behind with my Legal Writing research. But it is ok, I will begin it as soon as I finish this post.

Now about a moot court. Many people say that they had an enjoyment from it. I did, but I guess not fully, because at the end of the day I felt exhausted and on the edge of a break down. It was competition between teams of my school and another school of our state. Another school prepares for those competitions seriously, unlike my school. That is why each year law students of my school are very motivated to participate in that competition, but, unfortunately, still everybody not as good prepared as students from another school. To my shame, I must confess that I was one of those students. Actually, I tried hard, but I did not manage my time correctly, and as a result, I prepared my opening statement right before rounds. Of course, I received less points for almost reading from my notes. However, both judges (we had two rounds) admitted that my voice is persuasive, and the text of opening statement was great (wow... what a surprise, I guess I am not so bad in writing). BUT... as judges pointed out, I need to have more confidence. oh, well, what confidence may I have not having text and worrying that I might mixed up the grammar. Luckily, I had a very good partner, so he scored for us more points than we expected. Though, I did well on one of cross-examinations.

We did not get into semifinal, but we won one round out of 2, which is encouraging. If I have another opportunity to participate in a moot court, I will try to do that, although I have decided that litigation is not for me - too much of writing, research and very stressful. Now my reader, possibly thinks, that then I should not be a lawyer at all. Yes, it would be a good point. But I think, I have such a view about litigation, because I continuously try to overcome my fear of using another language from my native. Litigation requires those skills, that I did not develop well, at least at this point. Although I liked to be in front of the judge and roar at another counsel.

What will I do differently next time in preparation to moot court:

1. prepare opening (closing) statement beforehand, memorize it, and repeat it a couple of time with (or without) audience.
2. think in more detail about the picture of my client and what I want to prove (I really missed this point).
3. read more the Evidence rules. I lacked of it on my objections
4. work with witnesses and train them how to respond and how to be difficult witness
5. read more about difficult witnesses and how to handle them
6. feel more confident and try not to be led in all questions by my partner.

Although competitions are fun, I am now behind in my reading, and this weekend will be spent in reading cases and legal research.

By the way, I spend some time on the web site of former classmates. I was suprised how interesting the lives of people came up. For example, I had that classmate who studied in a school on Cs and weak Bs. Now he is the manager of one of the departments in court. What do I lead to? Even bad students can get job, so should I worry about my grades as much?