ohhhhh... I am tired and I want to have some fun

Hey, I am as always, decided to write after my long reading and making outlines, briefly I could call that "studying". I know, I know, you are tired also, but the reason of your tiredness is different, you are tired of my crying :-)

Opps.... I think I told the word "tired" too much times. Ok... so what's up, folks? My day was pretty good, because I was good girl and took my test, and I passed it pretty good. Well, as always, I have to say that I am not satisfied much how I did, but at least it wasn't worse.

Now I am alone at home, sitting and chewing grapes. I like this wonderful fruit. Is it fruit? Anyway, it is good and healthy. I think I type faster than I did before. I wonder how many words per minute?

You know? today I had my mood of uncertanty in the life. Now I passed it, few hours ago actually, but it was horrible. I don't like it. I am still in this mood, but it hides, that is why I read those stupid things that you probably read on my page. So I will finish, because I have no idea what to write more. Ok... and you will have more rest from my rubbish!

Still Genius

I am tired of studying

Hey, what's up, guys? I am tired of reading of all those things like citations, Blue Books and interviews of client and witnesses. Oh, Gosh, my poor had. I was in law library today since 9 am. I tried to work on my case. I spent there 5 hours, and right now when I am thinking about wtiting the memorandum, I think that I have to delete all that stupid thing I have wrote about my case. Isn't it horrible???!!!! When I think that I have to study even more than I did before, even longer than I did before, I am getting sick. But I can't do anything more. But I am not sure that I will like the law pretty much. When I did some stuff in my country I was bored on the end of the year. Maybe it will happen here again. That is what I am scared of, becuase I don't want to go to nowhere. Well, at least lawyers get more money that someone else. Of cource, doctors get even more, but I don't like biology. I had horrible teachers in school and since those times I don't like biology, so I have to strike (did I use this word correctly) the law school. It is hard, with my poor language. That is why I have to study, to do my best, otherwise my life will be nothing. Did you ever think for what we live? I thought, and I can't understand. EVeryone has some dreams and wishes, desires, but at the same time we even don't think that those things are worht to spend our life for. No? I wanted to study to be a lawyer, I studied good, than I worked for a year as a lawyer and I was tired of it, I quitted, and now again I am coming back to the thought that I want to do that what I started already 7 years ago if not earlie. Is it the track of my childhood dreams? Or is it the wish to establish my own life somehow, and I think that this way is the best in doing something? I have no idea and I have no idea where I go to. Do you know where you go? If you do, that is great. Maybe you will give me any advice?? I will tell the truth that I am scared of being failed, being bitten by life and not to get the goal (s) of my life. I am afraid that I put those goals too high and maybe I even don't need them. Fear kills us, I know that and it makes me scared even more. But I am looking right now to the window, and there is nice weather with sun and warm wind. I will finish to write my rubbish and go to study again. I don't know what I will get, but I know that I have to do something to get at least one part of what I want. We live, I live, others live, we all do something, don't stop, don'tlay down on the couch, just move... he he and we will be slim, at least one result will be visible ;-)

Huray!!!

Doctor called me today and told me that I am ok. Isn't it great to hear that after much fears in your soul?

Well, it is so called outside and I even have no wish to go outside and to do something. It is wonderful that I have a car, so I can turn on the heater and enjoy the warm air. But I hate cold weather anyway, it makes me cold also, it makes me upset, not movable at all. I would love to live somewhere in Florida... but there are huricanes Yuck... well, I suppose after all those huricanes this fall 2004 people will start to build stronger houses than before, so it is a good reason already to think about moving to that place... but not everything can be like we want, so my dreams about Florida will stay with me. I don't know for how long time, maybe 10 years?? Oh, no, it is so long.

Well... better I will move my ass from the chair and go to do something, because time is running so fast and you never know what will happen to you any moment, that is why better to do what you planed to do right now without any delay.

Sincerely Yours,
Genious

Who we are, what we are, where are we from and other things draws an attention of people around us, but noone even wants to know how hard it is to be an alien, wherever you are. Well, frankly speaking one of the reasons why I started this blog is because I am trying and very hard to speed up my typing, what is very slow now ( I mean typing and trying). Moreover I like to write even though it can be great bull sheat, but what to do if this wish just greatly getting from my inside. Ok, guys, I have to go, because I have to do a lot with my studying which I slow down regarding my bad events in this horrible life. But believe me, I will be back in a while (God help to keep my promise, I am so bad with this).

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