I am tired of studying

Hey, what's up, guys? I am tired of reading of all those things like citations, Blue Books and interviews of client and witnesses. Oh, Gosh, my poor had. I was in law library today since 9 am. I tried to work on my case. I spent there 5 hours, and right now when I am thinking about wtiting the memorandum, I think that I have to delete all that stupid thing I have wrote about my case. Isn't it horrible???!!!! When I think that I have to study even more than I did before, even longer than I did before, I am getting sick. But I can't do anything more. But I am not sure that I will like the law pretty much. When I did some stuff in my country I was bored on the end of the year. Maybe it will happen here again. That is what I am scared of, becuase I don't want to go to nowhere. Well, at least lawyers get more money that someone else. Of cource, doctors get even more, but I don't like biology. I had horrible teachers in school and since those times I don't like biology, so I have to strike (did I use this word correctly) the law school. It is hard, with my poor language. That is why I have to study, to do my best, otherwise my life will be nothing. Did you ever think for what we live? I thought, and I can't understand. EVeryone has some dreams and wishes, desires, but at the same time we even don't think that those things are worht to spend our life for. No? I wanted to study to be a lawyer, I studied good, than I worked for a year as a lawyer and I was tired of it, I quitted, and now again I am coming back to the thought that I want to do that what I started already 7 years ago if not earlie. Is it the track of my childhood dreams? Or is it the wish to establish my own life somehow, and I think that this way is the best in doing something? I have no idea and I have no idea where I go to. Do you know where you go? If you do, that is great. Maybe you will give me any advice?? I will tell the truth that I am scared of being failed, being bitten by life and not to get the goal (s) of my life. I am afraid that I put those goals too high and maybe I even don't need them. Fear kills us, I know that and it makes me scared even more. But I am looking right now to the window, and there is nice weather with sun and warm wind. I will finish to write my rubbish and go to study again. I don't know what I will get, but I know that I have to do something to get at least one part of what I want. We live, I live, others live, we all do something, don't stop, don'tlay down on the couch, just move... he he and we will be slim, at least one result will be visible ;-)