Top web site about motivation but it does not guarantee that I have it

So my blog continues to hit the ranks on the google search on "how to find motivation." Believe me or not, but a long absence of the posts on this site may tell my reader a lot about my motivation not only to write, but also to study. I quitted writing here, because I was tired of thinking every day about a school - nights and days, the same thoughts. Moreover, I did not (and do not) want to disappointed new arrivals into the law field who got there admission letters and now excited to begin to crack their way through the stone of legal knowledge. At this point I have no idea to where this path leads me. I am afraid my teech got a lot of damage and the school does not seem to me so exciting as it was before I have begun it. Now if you are a prospective 1L student, do not read further because I am going to entrust my view on the school. I hate it! I love law, I love it, but I do not like the way how I am taught and the way how I have to learn. I saw other ways to teach, and I think the ones now just do not work for me. Maybe it is just me, an old grumpy woman who got used to different things, and who does not want to work hard to reach something more than she has. Again, this is my personal view and I hope it caused only by exhaustion from studying. I will not be suprised if in a week after finals, I will sing another song.