How to find motivation for studying

It is Saturday. It is almost 5 pm. And I did not begin to do my homework. So I have googled "how to find motivation to do homework." I have found nice result here. I did not find many of advices for me, therefore, I took some of them and now I post here.

1. Think of the consequences. What will happen if you don't do your homework? You'll get a bad grade? Your teacher will be disappointed in you? If none of these things seem to apply to you, remember that homework is to help you learn, which everyone ultimately wants. In the real world, knowledge helps you master the rules of the game...and if you don't know the rules, how are you going to win? If Knowledge is Power...Ignorance is minimum wage.
2. If you really don't want to do your homework, then just get everything ready to do your homework: paper, pencil, textbook, and cup of tea. Then sit down and open the book to the page you need to read. Then read the first paragraph. Usually by then you will feel that you can write the first sentence. Break it down into little bites.
3. Do the hardest work first. This means the more you do it, the easier it gets.
4. It's easier to recall something if you remembered it under a similar environment (known as state-dependent learning). That's why it is important to study at a table and with proper lighting instead of reading on your bed, for example. (I do like to study in bed, but I noticed I do not remember much from it).
5. Also, think about the better grades you might get if you do your homework consistently. (EXACTLY!!!!)

I have looked into another link How-to-Be-A-Student. Yeah, general conclusion from it - study and study.

I think I am motivated now! Better I will begin read ConLaw. I am behind like 20 pages and then he gave us to read another 30. Total 50 pages to go for the next 3-4 hours.

Friday, the day of small relax- and a little about my new policy

I have not been writing for a while and I can explain it with me being busy with studying and moot court. Yes, I finally have experienced moot court competition. My other reason of some fear to spit my thoughts and feelings I have had recently about law school in general and my success. Past week was a torture for me, because each morning I got up with a thought of hatred for law school and the whole system. I hated it because I had hard time to figure out many things and because I did not have enough of sleep, I felt that I am behind of everybody, and it made me even worse. I went to read some blogs and with some disgust read how people enjoy a law school. Finally, I have overcome those feeling. I think I just needed a good sleep, and I had it. Now I am motivated and even happy. Honestly, not very much happy, because I am still behind with my Legal Writing research. But it is ok, I will begin it as soon as I finish this post.

Now about a moot court. Many people say that they had an enjoyment from it. I did, but I guess not fully, because at the end of the day I felt exhausted and on the edge of a break down. It was competition between teams of my school and another school of our state. Another school prepares for those competitions seriously, unlike my school. That is why each year law students of my school are very motivated to participate in that competition, but, unfortunately, still everybody not as good prepared as students from another school. To my shame, I must confess that I was one of those students. Actually, I tried hard, but I did not manage my time correctly, and as a result, I prepared my opening statement right before rounds. Of course, I received less points for almost reading from my notes. However, both judges (we had two rounds) admitted that my voice is persuasive, and the text of opening statement was great (wow... what a surprise, I guess I am not so bad in writing). BUT... as judges pointed out, I need to have more confidence. oh, well, what confidence may I have not having text and worrying that I might mixed up the grammar. Luckily, I had a very good partner, so he scored for us more points than we expected. Though, I did well on one of cross-examinations.

We did not get into semifinal, but we won one round out of 2, which is encouraging. If I have another opportunity to participate in a moot court, I will try to do that, although I have decided that litigation is not for me - too much of writing, research and very stressful. Now my reader, possibly thinks, that then I should not be a lawyer at all. Yes, it would be a good point. But I think, I have such a view about litigation, because I continuously try to overcome my fear of using another language from my native. Litigation requires those skills, that I did not develop well, at least at this point. Although I liked to be in front of the judge and roar at another counsel.

What will I do differently next time in preparation to moot court:

1. prepare opening (closing) statement beforehand, memorize it, and repeat it a couple of time with (or without) audience.
2. think in more detail about the picture of my client and what I want to prove (I really missed this point).
3. read more the Evidence rules. I lacked of it on my objections
4. work with witnesses and train them how to respond and how to be difficult witness
5. read more about difficult witnesses and how to handle them
6. feel more confident and try not to be led in all questions by my partner.

Although competitions are fun, I am now behind in my reading, and this weekend will be spent in reading cases and legal research.

By the way, I spend some time on the web site of former classmates. I was suprised how interesting the lives of people came up. For example, I had that classmate who studied in a school on Cs and weak Bs. Now he is the manager of one of the departments in court. What do I lead to? Even bad students can get job, so should I worry about my grades as much?

Just short note, I have no strength to write more

I am very busy those days with preparations to a moot court I will have this Saturday. I was so frustraited with myself that I did not sleep all night and as a result I am sleepy now and do not want to do anything else, but lie my head on the pillow and fall into DEEP sleep.

Here is new site I just find Shark. It is dedicated to law school. oh.. soon I will be sick just from a word "law school," but no explanation to this comment will be given now. Later on. Cheers.

Dear attorneys, did you forget your times of job searching?

Note I wrote next day:
I was tired and made, sleepy and upset, therefore this post has many mistakes. however, I am not going to edit them. What for? Why not to see my insanity? :-)
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So I just have come back from Skills Program meeting in one of the law firms in the city. I like such type of meetings. This one was particularly directed on diverse participants. I like such events but sometimes they bring me upset thoughts. Today it was that case when I left the office being frustraited. I will not mention the point that I came to go through a mock job interview and hoped it will prepare me for interviews I will hopefully have for my clerkship program. However, they gave me the guy who worked in the company for a week and who by himself just recent graduate. Then there was a board of practicing attorneys who talked about the career and how great legal career is. First, I am kind of tired of those long-minutes speeches about how-we-became-great-lawyers. Surely all lawyers like to talk about themselves, and it was interesting for me to know how they got their success. Though I do not long speeches, and today some of them were long. Then there was a question to them about the grades, something like, "obviously 90% of the class are not at the top of the class, so how to find a job for those not 10%." At this point I have heard a lot of fairy tales. One of female attorneys told that she participated in hiring and stressed out that she rarely looked into the grades. What??? I asked myself and virtually her. Then tell me why do I saw that upset face of my career adviser after I told him my GPA? Something like "well, girl, and you want to find some job? go better and study!" Or those articles telling about hard time to find job with low GPA and how picky those large law firms about hiring. Just yesterday on career web site I saw the ad of Excel Energy who were looking for intern from 10% top class.

Another guy from the board talked about the importance of reputation but not a career.

Now it is time for my speech. Dear, attorneys, did you forget the times when you were looking for jobs and you were asked for your GPA? The lady from the board while talking about her grraduation and looking for job proudly announced that she was not in the top of the class but very close. So if the grades are not so important, why do you mention them so proudly? Why do you ask me to send you a transcript together with my resume?

I do not want to seem paranoid, but I do not like to be misled! But this is what happened to me at that meeting. I agree, the grades will not matter in the court room or five years past gradution, but the question is how to get into the law firm after graduation. Despite the clear question from somebody's email and expectations of participants to hear the reality, we did not receive the right, real answer. I am disappointed.

Second week of second semester

So this is Wednesday, second week of my new semester. From anger and frustration after I saw my grades, I switched to the position of self-denial and criticism. I know that there is nobody to blame for my falling down but myself, because I did not put enough effort into studying. I have noticed that last weekend. I had three days off and I did almost nothing for school. BTW, those days were possibly the best days of the year. I relaxed, I did not have bad thoughts about the grades, I knew what I have and that I could not change them. I cooked, walked, went to gym. Finally I have sent my paperwork for citizenship. Hopefully, in a year I will carry that blue passport with eagle on it. :-) And no need for visas anymore. What a dream.

School goes ok. But I do not want to write much about it, because it is almost 10 and I want to sleep. I have another two days to survive and tomorrow I have a bunch of appointments.

I feel sorry I write only about law school. I think I need to mix in somethings. But what ? :)

My disapointments, I am afraid not last ones

If a law school makes somebody think "like a lawyer," it is not my case. The law school makes me think "like a loser." I guess the reader guessed that I have recieved my first semester grades, and, yes, they suck. My feelings went through gradual development:

1. suprise and astoonishment when I have received my first grade on Contracts, and even more suprise and astonishment after I have received my Property and Civ Pro.

2. next I was crying. I am a woman and I am emotional person, how else will I get rid of my emotions. I cried like a crazy, but good for not so long.

3. Next round was continued with the feeling of stupidity, "What!? I am so bad? I cannot believe I am so stupid!!!"

4. The next round was worse - from love to hateress (love was at the beginning of the semester). I hated a law school, myself and professors. I had to go to buy the books for the next semester and could not even sit in the car thinking how disgusted I am even to see the school.

5. The fifth round was mixed with fourth. The rage was added. I was soooo mad I did badly on the exams. I was sooo mad my professors gave me the questions I did not know how to answer. I was ashamed of my rage and nothing I could do.

Finally, the round of bad grades was over after I have got assurance from professors and a register that I am not on probation.

The hatrad to the law school and professors almost has gone. The professors are innocent, aren't they? I looked into the exams and I was 100% at fault to miss that painful issue of Post Consideration. I mean I did well at multiple, but I failed on essay. I cannot believe I missed that easy points!!! But all this behind. Though, I left with a bad GPA of 2.6. What a disaster.

Watching students receiving their grades were miserable view - anger, happiness, smiles and disapointments. "I was ready to kill that girl who complained she did not get A, but A-." Those phrases I heard a couple of times. Honestly, I was thinking that way too, just I did not uttered it.

One of the disappointments for me was Property. My professor told me I have analytical skills but I do not know how to put that on paper. What a bummer! He said,"the lawyer has to know how to write." Yeah, I know, I tell this myself everyday while thinking on whether I has to use article "a" or "the." I guess I am not as smart to know how to write as a lawyer! F*** This is what I was afraid of. Damn it, I will not quite anyway, although ConLaw and Criminal Law seemed to be even worse from what I had last semester. Now I will have to afraid of probation for sure.

Briefly about my plans for the next couple months:
1) I work on internships. Although my grades are really bad, I hope to get something
2) I will participate in a moot court competition. I am realy excited about it
3) I will work on changing studying schedule. i was lazy last semester and my grades perfectly reflected this. Therefore, let's go into the heart of the battle - the living in the law school.

Also, I miss my parents, I want to go home at least for a month. I always feel that way when I have a hard time in my life.

My site meter

I thought nobody ever looked at my web site before, but what a surprise was to see that some google links brought viewers to my blog :-) However, a sad news is the inquiries that brought them to me:

"students uncondidence for asking"
"tired of (from) studying"
"I cannot believe I did this to myself"

I do not know if I should laugh or cry, but those inquiries seem to my depressing. well, at list "the law student and Valentine's day" brings some cheerfulness into the life of my blog :-)

hmmmm

Ok, a couple hours passed since I saw my Contracts grade, and I TELL you - I am MAD. I am mad on myself, and at the same time I am bevildered. I cannot believe I did so bad. I tried so hard, I was so sure that I did well. Now, after reading online articles about grades, I see my situation even worse, because only 25 % of students get grade below B-. and 50-75% of the students get B, B+, B-. How would you feel to know that I am the one who is on the end of this list? This is just awful. Of course, I am not going to bit myself for this, but now I am impatient to know what I did wrong. Whether it was my multiple choice or my writing?? Damn, I was so sure I did super well. Now I am afraid of other grades. I tried calculator, and there is no way I will make it higher than 3.0. I feel like a looser. I have to work how to lose this feeling because it will make worse my next semester. F***!

Relief??

So if I go for search a google and typed "law school grades", it means I stressed out about it? I think so. I have found nice post, not recent though.

More on Bad Law School Grades
I don't have much more to say about getting off to a bumpy start in law school, gradewise. But good heavens, lots of people are doing Google searches or writing me about it. My heart goes out to all of those of you who were disappointed, heartbroken, shaken by your grades, who are now doubting yourself and looking to Google to make sense of it all.

Look, guys, I got a C- and a C+ my first semester of law school. (And two A-s and a B+, to be complete). I was 22nd in the class after that. The next semester I got two As, a couple of A-s, and another B+, and I was 4th in the class. I just kept moving up, and I graduated first. So it's not hopeless. You're not destined to have dismal grades for the rest of your law school career. They needn't hold you back.

Stop gnashing your teeth about what these grades MEAN about who you are and what you're capable of and what the Rest of Your Life is limited to. You are just as smart as you were the day before you got your grades. And now you know something you didn't know before: what to expect from law school exams. March your butt into your professors' offices and sit down with the exam and talk to them about it. We all know you studied your head off, but did you articulate what you knew, or did you study the wrong stuff, or did you have trouble identifying the issues, or were you a disorganized mess, or did you confuse the terminology, or what? Whichever one(s) it was, you're going to fix it next semester. The professor will help you, if you ask. And now you know to ask.

I hope she is right, but then will I be able to make it next semester????!!!!

Time to cry???

Ok, I have recieved my first grade. No shame to tell you that I missed a point to get B-, as a result I have C+. I am not disappointed, I am surprised. After Contracts exam (this is where I have recieved this grade) I felt I did well. Now I see again that my fear is fullfiled. Each time I feel good after exam or any other event that can change something in my life, that exam or event goes badly. Isn't it weird? But when I feel bad, the event goes quite well. So I hope I will not get C on my Property exam.

My days

Less than a week left before the beginning of the semester. I have a work to do, like personal statement, resume and cover letters for internship. But I did not do anything. Like, for example, today I have spent whole day surfing Internet and doing videos from Florida. I am going to send a parcel to my mom, and as a rule I send DVD with other stuff. Now there are some things to send to her, so I need to hurry up to finish DVD. BTW, my stories came up quite interesting. I hope my parents will like them too.

Lawyers and Joes

happy New Year to everybody. I hope this year will be not worse than a past year. I have read my horoscop and ... yesss ... it said a lot of good things about my future. I am really happy.

Right now we are in Florida. Of course, word Florida rises in imaginations palms and unvelievably warm weather. To our greatest disappointement only first part is true about our trip, but weahter turned its back on us, and we disparately suffer cold wind, temperature of mid 40s and lack of sun. We came to Florida with shorts and t-shirts and will leave with hats and gloves we bought in the local Walmart to save ourselves from awful cold weather.

But my story is not about bad weather. It is the storytelling about what happened to use today. This is the story:

Once upon a time... No, it is not mine. Let me try again. So today we went to Orlando downtown to look around, find more cultural entertainment beyond boring and crowded DisneyWorld. After we hit the narrow streets of Orlando we found one parking spot near a meter. Dane turned into it began to back up. Going back in the timeline of my story I have to tell you that we rented Toyota Prius. I am not much in love with this car, I think it needs some work on it, but we found very funny feature - camera on the back of a car that turns on when the car is in reverse mode. As a result of camera use fun Dane used the camera quite often, same in Orlando when he backed up into the parking spot. While he was doing this he commented that the car behind us is surely lawyer's car. I looked carefully into the screen and noticed BMW emblem on the car's front. When Dane backed up too close to BMW behind we suddenly heard screams, "What are you doing? Don't you see where you go?" Those shouts were of the owner of fancy BMW. We stopped, but he continued screaming. Dane got out of the car and began pointing into the camera, and laughing explained that there is a camera and we know how close we back up. The guy (average looking in white shirt and black pants with a bunch of papers underarm) seemed to get queiter with his screams mumbling something like, "Anyway I would not trust this cameras." His next phrase made me laugh. What do you think he told? I will not guess. He said, "you could damage my car. By the way I am a lawyer!" He told this in such a way as if he said, "I a killer" or "I am a President of the United States" No, no... as if he said, "I am God!" First it seemed to me funny because Dane was 100% right that the guy is a lawyer. But then after we left shaking his hand and asking about interesting places in Orlando, I thought through this story. That Orlando attorney afterwards seemed to me arrogant bustard who thinks that if he has a law degree and drives BMW he may threat me with his knowledge and ability to sue me for any reason or fault he may find. Now I understand why so many people hate lawyers, those arrogant asses who thinks they are gods. Indeed, after first semester in the law school I had a power of the knowledge, the ability to protect myself and others by legal ways. However, after today I feel kind of ashamed for having such feeling, because I should not have use my knowledge to be in superiority over other Joes who does not know the law as good as even a law student. Yes, I do not want to work for public law (although I hope I will keep my promise to myself to take some pro bono cases) and I am thinking more about making money. However, it does not allow me to turn into the monster who does not care about others and who knows only own business and not others.

Despite my love to the law, and happiness of knowledge of many things more than others, I hope most of law students will not turn into this guy on Orlando streets who thinks it is normal to threaten ordinary people with "I am a lawyer" thing. Beware arrogant asses, soon I will be equal to you and I am not going to back up in my defense by silence, I will tell you, "I am not care who you are and what school you graduated from, you are the same live person as I am, so behave as a human."

I took a picture of BMW and our rented Prius just to keep the story in mind.

My wishes and plans

You know what I want to do? I would like to sue my school (or any other law school) for IIED (intentioanl infliction of emotional distress). Do you know why? because I have those nightmares several nights in a row about the law school finals I survived. I see that I have got all Cs, or I forgot to take fifth exam, or my professor cannot read what I wrote because I used some unknown symbol system. The worse was just last night where I saw a professor who told me that I wrote unbelievable rubbish and that I am fired. My Goodness, who could think that life will be so tough even after the exams? I cannot stand it. I even afraid to go to sleep. A night before was the worst, because I had a fever due to my sickness. I saw my 4 exams in the way of car plates and road signs and screaming and chanting that I failed. This is funny, but I did not read about such result on other law school students blogs. As a conclusion of all above, I think I am entitled to the victory for IIED :-))

I was planning this post to be aslo about my plans and strategies in the law school for the next semester. But I changed my mind. It is the middle of my break and I do not want to think about such thing as a law school :-)) however, I bought today this book by Turow named "One L." The author graduated from Harward law school. I think it will be interesting to compare my observations and thoughts with the author's who studied in number one law school :-)) I hope I will not get frustraited that I was not persistent in my studying comparing to a Harward law student, or I did something wrong (though, who knows how to do this right?).

Finally, tomorrow we will pack our staff for 6-day trip to Florida. I am kind of exciting, but I am not sure whether I am really excited. I think I am still under influence of my first semester, and I am still in thoughts about how I did it. But I bet I will change my mind tomorrow when I fold my sweaters into small luggage.

Finals are OVEEEEERRRRRRR WOOOOHOOOO

I am so happy that today I had a last final. I even cannot believe it. Now I do not know what to do with my time. I can go shopping, spend time online, go partying, drinking, blogging. All kinds of stuff yey yey yey. Torts went without much of stress but I had a lot of typing. I really enjoyed it. I hope I will enjoy my grades in the same way as I enjoyed the exam ;-))) BUT actually I should not relax much because I have to do my resume and personal statement, and all other stuff for the summer internship. Frankly speaking I do not want to think of this till Christmas. Give me first to survive this holiday ("survive" is too loudly said). yeehhhhh I am just finished my first semester, yyeeehhhh I am ready to have a rest. I will write more later on because now I have to look up the schedule of the movies. I want to see that one with chipmunks (is it correct spelling?)
cheers.

I am back

So it is the same day of my CivPro exam. I watched TV, actually I watched only the frame of TV without knowing what was going on there. I have read some blogs and now I calmed down and want to chat about the law school, its exams and what actually the purpose of studying there.

Of course, my thoughts will be in connection with past exam. Actually with two of them, because the property was the taugh one too with the question what do you think about that and that case and opinion and why do you think the court is right or not. So far from my previous experience and also from realistic expectations, I assumed that the law school is teaching the law. Of course, the law is such a vague substance that you cannot learn all at once. Perhaps I even do not need to learn it but understand its principles. Maybe this is the reason why professors wants us to think as a lawyer looking into the substance of opinions and the regulations, into their purposes and goals and whatever else you want to add to this list. My question is why do I need to know whether the civil procedure regulations are good enough to find the truth from the parties, and whether they are strict enough to limit federal courts jurisdiction, or why the court made a mistake in its opinion?

Here how I think at it. The opinion was made and it is now the precedent, me or another party will apply it to win its own claim and it can work quite well to win. Many people may disagree with me and I will understand them. I think the deep substance of the opinion is useful to know for the understanding of the law and its application. But is it so important to put it on the test? Now look at this fact. I studied hard and learned the sections of the FRCP and property cases. But then another did nothing and came with the textbook and hopes that he/she will have enough time to look it up. Next, that person and I get general question about the goals of the procedure and other general stuff that you may come up with much of the knowledge. The person knows how to "pour water" and I have no idea. Who wins? I may assure the reader that not me. This is what frustrates me a lot. I jeopardize my own grades because I am punished for being not creative and for not thinking about things I did not study. yes, the work of the lawyer is grounded into creativity, but I see that creativity in the using the law regulations and strategies based on it. Not on the phylosophical doctrine.

Why to put such questions for the law students on the test? What is the purpose? Will it be helpful in law practice? Or will it be more helpful to be the professor? Do professors really think we need it?

All those questions seem to have sense and the answer "yes, you need to know this because you are the future lawyer and you have to think about it and know how to put it on the paper" may be persuasive. But is it? I am afraid I will find out after I begin the practice but it will be too late, because my grades will suffer unbearably. How will I explain to my employer that I think that those questions are not so significant to know? And even if it comes up that they are, how will I prepare myself to answer such questions?

Although I began the exams with light mind and a lot of hopes, now I have a feeling of dispair and the fear that I came back to the educational system where you learn what you need to get a good grade on the exam by knowing what the professor wants to hear from you, but not by the knowledge of law, that I think much more interesting and applicable in our life than mooshy doctrines and theories.

God help me to survive torts that also will have the question of policy.

My third exam and I wish last

I even do not know if I want to write this post? But I will try. Maybe in a couple of years when I am practicing, I will read this and laugh. So today I have CivPro exam. I went horribly. I MEAN it. The first question was so easy, because it was based on the law, true law, i.e. issue spotting. But then the nightmare began. The second question was about tribal court jurisdiction. I do not mind, I liked that subject. BUT the professor gave us an hour for the answer. I had no idea what to do with that question. Moreover she asked to draft long-arm statute that I did not read about. I mean I knew what it is about, but I did not look at it precisely to answer. I do not want to go into details, but all the question was about talking about something and I had no idea what to talk about. It was such a despair. I freaked out, I was scared of the question and my answer. What happened to me? I am so frustrated that I do not know how to answer such general questions. I think I failed. I MEAN it. Till this point I enjoyed finals, but now, when three are behind and one is left, I am scared and upset. Exams in law school sucks. I am afraid it will happen so that I am not an A student.

From one side I should not worry about the grades, because it is only grades. But then the grades will help me to find first job. I wonder do I really need to worry so much about those stupid grades? Nevermind, my mind is off. I better go to do torts, another pain of my life.

Bye bye the times when I was a good student. Welcome time when I have C's instead of A's.

Tomorrow is exam and I do nothing

So I got up this morning with a lot of nervousness and thoughts about my exam tomorrow, also with plans to begin studying as soon as possible. But I did not. I spent an hour online reading someone's blogs. Such a bummer. Now I hope I will jump into the studying.

My first law school exam

Ok... so yesterday I did it. I took Contracts and now I do not have any feelings about it. Which is quite weird because I am supposed to be nervous and worrying. Actually, I am. Beginning this morning. I looked up the instructions how to write law school exams that our legal writing professor handed out, and not I feel that I did essay part totally wrong. Well, maybe not totally but partially, which made me upset now. As said that instruction, "crucial point in law exams you ar not telling what you know but applying what you know." This is what I did not do in some of the questions. Now I am frustraited I did not this print before. Anyway, this is my brief description of what happened that "ugly" morning:

I got up not easily because last nights I went to sleep late and I got up late, so my body did not get used to get up early. As a result I left the house as usual. After watching news about snowfall last night which continued into the morning of Tuesday - the day of my exam - I figured out I would better leave ASAP. As a result I forgot my coat and freacked out, while driving, whether I took my supplement (the only material allowed on the exam). I spent 2 hours and 15 minutes on the road. As a result I was at school after 9 am, when exam began at 8.15. Fun.. huh? but I was not nervous, which made me nervously think why I was not and was it a good sign to the outcome of the exam :-)))

I went to the registrar, fabulous woman, who without any wink sitted me to another class room for the people who is late. She said they were expacting even more people. Actually, I benefited very well from being late, because I was sitted in the room with other 3 students, while all other students were in the crowded room sweatening and worrying that somebody already switched to another question. Yep, I was alone in room's conner enojing reading of 52 multiple questions with my legs on teh chair next to me. Damn, I must admit I enjoyed this exam! Multiple questions went well (I am scared of this thought now, because I believe, that when I think it went well, it means it did not. So many times it was so... uhmmm). The essay was harder, however, now I am thinking that I wrote it not so bad.

Finally, I need to put aside my worries about the lack of worries and think of the next final - Property. Yeah, I will have much more writing there. I need now to finish my outline and go trhough law of Perpetuities. Then maybe try to write at least one exam. Uhhh... Instead I want to go to mountains and walk in the snow. Such a life.

If you ask me who are new Russians, here is some part of the answer

Well, I know that I was not blogging for a while. But I have read quite a bit other's blog. Anyway, my main point of this post will be the article I found about. New Russians in American world. What the most I liked was the their characterization

The product of a culture where materialism was once the cardinal sin, they are itching to wag their status both at home and abroad. “In Moscow, they have their Mercedes and BMWs, their Versace and Armani, watch collections, armies of bodyguards, and estates on the outskirts of the city,” the Russian continues, “but it’s like having a fantastic party atop a minefield: Sometimes, there’s an accident, and somebody gets killed.”

The funniest thing that despite her family's money she wants to stay in US.

Her mom worries that Anna is losing her Russian, so this fall she is taking private lessons. She can’t envision moving back to Moscow, she said. “I belong here,” she insisted, even if her dad wished he could see more of her in Moscow.

So what can I say? I love you America!!

oh.... a half way through semester

Today was another day when during three classes I tried to find courage to talk in the class and I did not. And I am trying to do this not mostly for the grade but because I want to talk to remember and understand things better. Why don't I talk? I have no idea. At one point I think I do not have enough what to say and then when I do not say anything, I am getting bored and do not want even to hear what is going on in class. Sad, uh? So far last Thursday night I have spent slepless from 2 am till 4 am just because I worried that I didn't begin to do my outline, when others did, and I worried what I have got on my memo for Legal Writing. As a result, my memo was fine. My Contracts outline did not move even a word. I am not regreting it now very much, just because I have another paper to do. But I still regret that I do not talk in the classes. That is what I do not like in American law schools' system, the way how they teach. When in my previous school, we had seminars where the only persons who talked were students, and just through prepairing to this talk I learnt. Here, I just do not want sometimes to show my thought, and I guess just out of fear that I will be wrong and then all class will look at me like I am an idiot. I already have looked like this when I asked where I get cans for homeless drive, or whatever they have in the school now as an action. Apparently, it was not cans from pops, but cans of food. Honestly, I am not much into bringing food for homeless, just because of my views on homeless here. But just because if everybody shows up with those cans, then the professor will not call on people, but will look for volunteers. Which I do not mind if she calls on my, because I will get a chance to talk, a chance that I look forward from myself each day and without any success as I have told above.

Anyway, I have to read Property now, the class I really like despite of all the difficulties of perpetuities and trusts that we go through now. Then I have to think about memo for Legal Writing. Actually not only think but write at least something, because it is due on Friday.